2010

January: Get fit, DRPP, prepare
February - June: Live in Rotterdam
June: Glastonbury
July: Move and Work
August: Travel
September: Start Again

New year.

New diet.

2009/2010

Starting to think about resolutions.
Back to one meal a day.
I'm happy.

Things associated with stress.

I'm not even going to mention food. Its pointless. Can I go on a hunger strike about being forced to eat? Aha.

Things that stress me out (avoiding obvious political things, I mean the everyday stress I should have control over)

- my Bristol life:
  I hate my flat and have no say in anything, why do I work so damn hard for it to be clean and tidy and for everyone to walk all over me. I do not want 40+ people in my house on New Years, please can it just a be a nice night out with people I care about, not your shitty friends you barely know and just get trashed with. I might be anti-social, but these past 6 months have given me reason to.

God actually, thats the only thing that is stressing me out to the point of screaming. Everything else is just waste, family etc, the stuff you hate but you can't do without.
So look at that. I just fucking hate where I live.

47 days til I move to Holland, something I have started having panic attacks about, but I knew I would and its one of the reasons I wanted to go in the first place. People I will be out there with have started to contact me, this is making me feel a little bit more secure.

190 days til I move into my new place, with 3 of my best friends. Something, I know, will be easier than this.

In the words of, someone, this too shall pass.

Todays edibles in a handy bitesize portion.

Food:
1 slice of mothers chocolate cake
3 coffees
1 plate rogan josh vegetables with noodles and naan bread

Moving.

I'm perfectly content it just being me. I just sometimes wish it could be just me, with someone else.

Edibles SUCK.

I am so fed up of eating.

I have put on weight, I'm bloated and I feel constantly sick.

Fuck doctors.

Edibles.

New diet should really be taking place, but the more food I eat the sicker I feel.

Today:

1 packet french fries

1 half(ish) jacket potato with cheese and salad

1 bowl cous cous with courgette pieces

Some nice things.

I have:

2 bruises from blood tests.

8 bruises from Friday night.

4 bite marks.

52 new prints of latex moulds.

1 shiny essay.

Edibles

Today:

1 bowl pasta with ragu sauce

1 bounty chocolate bar

Tomorrow is blood test number 3. 

:(

Edibles.

Yesterday:

1 bowl pasta with broccoli and peas.

Edibles

Yesterday:

1 bean burger with peas, mash and broccoli

1 bottle pimms

1 bottle wine

Today:

1 baguette with feta and chargrilled vegetables

Edibles.

Yesterday:

1 Jacket Potato with hummus and sweetcorn 

A lotta lotta ale.

Today:

1 heidi pieminster pie with mash 

1 spaghetti al pomodoro with garlic slice

1/2 lemon tart

*nom nom nom*

Food

1 slice homemade by dan aubergine and mushroom lasagne

1 slice garlic bread

Tea tea tea tea

Food win.

Yesterday:

1 vegetarian noodle vermacilli (sp?) YUM

1 vegetable spring roll.

3 tiger beer

2 bottles of red wine shared with my sister..

WIN ALL ROUND.

Food.

1 Jacket Potato with Beans

1 black coffee

Food.

Yesterday:

2 sweet potato and vegan pate

A heck of a lot of cider

A hell of a lot of ale

Today:

1 hummus and rocket baguette

1 jacket potato with beans

Food.

1 Wispa Gold

1 small bagette with cheese and cucumber

1/2 Roasted butternut squash with pepper

1 hotchocolate

Food.

Today: 

- 1 bowl bran flakes

- 1 snack sized dairy milk

Yesterday:

- 1 bowl bran flakes

- 1 slice of toast

Food.

Today:

- 1 bowl bran flakes with prunes.

Food.

I have til the 15th to lose all this excess. 

Today:

- 1 bowl bran flakes with prunes

- 1 bowl lettuce, carrot (raw), mushroom (raw) and alfalfa sprouts

- 1 small lettuce and celery sandwich

food.

My weight is still going up, so I think I'm going to have to cut back even more.

Today:

- 1 bowl muesli with assorted nuts and prunes

- 1 slice toast

- 1 bowl assorted nuts and raisins

- 1 bowl cous cous with red onion, sprouts, mushrooms and peppers.

Swollen. Might do some yoga to elevate the feeling.

Food.

I went weekly food shopping, so the intake is a bit high.

Today:

- 1 dark chocolate and blueberry cereal bar

- 1 sandwich (granary bread with lettuce, celery and light salad cream)

- 1 bowl of butternut squash, red onion, celery and sprout stir fry

- 1 bowl bran flakes with prunes and assorted nuts

- 1 bowl muesli

Food.

I started a new job today, I think I'm going to like it.

Today:

- 1 large bowl muesli 

- 1 small bowl spaghetti with tomato and chili sauce.

Food.

2 bags Hula Hoops

1 bagette filled with sour cream

1 small plate cous cous

1 bounty

1 galaxy bar

1 bag chocolate covered peanuts

1 bowl spagetti with tomato and chili sauce.

YUM.

Food.

Binges are becoming commonplace again. Damn rain.

Today: 

1/2 Bowl Branflakes

1 Bowl of tinned tomato and oil soaked bread

2 bowls pasta, butternut squash, onion and tinned tomatoes.

Chocolate is a must today....

Looking up.

I'm employed finally.

I also have an idea for a new painting, which I must start today.

Things are looking up.

Food.

Today:

1 bowl of very stale bread dipped in chili oil with 6 gone off cherry tomatoes (warmed up).

Food.

Today:

1 Bowl Muesli with gone off soya milk

1 bag Thorntons assorted milk chocolates

1 bowl chili oil dipped stale bread with cherry tomatoes, beetroot and italian lettuce.

1 bag hula hoops.

Food.

Today so far:

1 pack hula hoops (addiction?)

4 slices french bread topped with hummus and beetroot

side salad

very generous helping of sensations thai sweet chili crisps

1 kinder egg

1 rivita with hummous.

:(

Food.

Today:

1 Bowl Bran Flakes

1/2 Slice Jam Toast

2 Bowls of Plain Pasta with Sweetcorn and Cherry Tomatoes.

Drunk only tea and ice water.

Binge: 3 packs of Hula Hoops & 1 Rum and Raisin Flapjack.